How Do I Love Myself When I Feel Like Crap?

Many people see my constant, happy smile andand attract other similar energy and bring us back
make instant assumptions about me and my past.much more in return.
However, my childhood was a pretty traumaticTo begin the process of self-love, we have to
one. In the bad old days, as I call them, I wouldask ourself these questions. When did I last give
pass a mirror, momentarily liked what I saw butdeliberate thanks for...waking up and seeing
then suddenly, and inexplicably, would start tellinganother day?the people in my life?the things I
myself that I was 'crap', that I 'hated' myself andhave been blessed with?the talents I have?the
I was 'pathetic'. I had buried my trauma deepfaculties that still work?my beauty, life and
inside me, refusing to face them and, slowly, itexperiences?
took its toll in a continuous lack of self-love andDo I just take everything and people around me
low self-esteem. Gradually, and painfully, I learnedfor granted?
that I had to sort out my past, face it and moveWhen did I affirm and reinforce someone?
on, and then begin the slow process of self-love.Third, what do you wish to do with that life? We
The wonderful result is clear to see now.are not talking about your job here. We are
At the root of our main problems is likely to be atalking about your PURPOSE. What makes you
lack of self-love. It is much easier for us not towant to jump out of bed in the mornings, makes
love ourself because the natural instinct to blameyou want to fly, thrills you with a warm glow
always seeks a scapegoat. When we do not wishwhen you think of it? That's your purpose. If you
to blame someone else for the hurt, pain orare feeling generally unhappy, you have not
unappreciation we feel, we go inwards with theidentified your life purpose yet, otherwise you
anger and beat ourselves up instead.would be almost delirious with excitement, as I
For example, victims of racism are likely to loatheam every day of my life. My work is just magic. I
themselves or their children, likely to tell theircan actually see the difference it makes to others
children how 'ugly' or 'horrible' they are,and that is so empowering - both to me and the
externalising the self-hate they feel. The samereceivers. You are probably just doing your job
with victims of domestic abuse. They usuallyfor the sake of the money, trapped by a
blame themselves for the violence, being willing tomortgage or being a slave to material things. That
believe that they must have done something towill not make you feel good in the long term. It
deserve it and they are not worthy of anythingwill not give you much value. When we are living
else. This lack of self love merely perpetuates theto purpose the world is our oyster and everything
negative situations, reinforcing the very behaviourwe want gradually comes into being. We don't
which is hurting them.even have to try too hard, we just do our best
Self-love is the Keyand the Universe delivers.
To value, feelings of worth, inclusion significanceKeep out of the past unless it is positive!
and ultimately respect. We cannot earn theFourth, I have learned that when we keep ourself
respect of others if we have no respect forin the past it is because we don't like our present
ourself. We cannot expect others to love whattoo much. We probably feel isolated, excluded,
we reject if we have no love for ourself and weunloved, unappreciated, so we secretly blame
cannot expect value from others if we giveourself, we use our depression to maintain
ourself no value. What happens in our life happensattention, but of a sort which, sadly, alienates us
in circular motion: whatever we feel we then givefrom others and have counter-productive effects.
out to our world which comes back to us ten-foldIn short, our current unhappiness helps us to hark
through the natural Law of Attraction. So if weback to the past to remind ourself of how terrible
feel awful and negative, we give that out, thewe are while making our situation worse.
energy we send out attracts similar negativeWe keep the negatives stuck in our head,
energy which then returns to haunt us evenperhaps for sympathy, instead of facing them,
more. That is why certain people constantly haveacknowledging them, forgiving OURSELF and
negative experiences. Nothing will change until theyothers and moving on. I could not forgive until I
change their thought processes. So you need tofound love .. my own self-love. To find true love
be careful what you focus on because that is allfrom someone else, you have to love yourself
you will get in life!first. No one can love you for you.
However, how do you begin to love yourselfBut people who live in the past tend to take their
when others might not have affirmed or lovedpresent for granted, while many others have not
you?been so privileged to have one. We have no
A very good question, not so glib to answerpresent or future if we live in the past. We are so
because it is difficult to do. It means you have tobusy looking back there, we have no time to
try to overturn years of negativity and beingmake a future or to appreciate what we have.
undervalued by parents or lovers. However, itHence we come across as selfish and ungrateful.
starts with establishing 5 things:Someone once said, "If you want to know what
The value you place on yourself,your future will be like, look at your habits now".
Gratitude for your life and blessings,Whatever habits you have today will dictate your
What you wish to do with that life,tomorrow. If you have negative habits that keep
Self-appreciation and living in the present andyou stuck in the past, you will only keep getting
Self-forgiveness.what you've always got. Your future will be no
Who is Your Personal Manager?different from today. Your habits, the way you
First, begin by looking at yourself from thedo things now, will guarantee that.
outside. Ask yourself, if you were your ownSo, in a nutshell, we have to stop beating ourself
manager would you employ you? Would youup over past actions, stop aiming for perfection
employ someone who puts you down, tells youand stop comparing ourself to others, otherwise
how terrible you are, beat you up for everywe will always feel inadequate. You also have to
mistake, loathes you and does nothing toappreciate your limitations, praise yourself DAILY
motivate you? One who forces you to put upfor being a wonderful and unique human being.
with violence or putdowns, to be treated like aStop seeking the approval of others when the
doormat? Of course not. Yet you constantly doonly standard should be your own, and look
that to yourself! Time to sack that personaloutwards to others in love and appreciation than
manager, that little voice of negativity within you,just focusing on yourself.
and get a new motivational one!I have found all these to be most helpful in
Second, begin to give thanks for your LIFE and itsdeveloping self-love but, most of all, accepting
blessings. Your time on earth is very preciousmyself as I am and giving thanks for every new
because many people have no life. Theirs haveday of my life, instead of taking it for granted,
been taken while you are still enjoying yours.has been the biggest factor in nurturing my self
Appreciate that simple fact and give thanks. It islove and moving me from feeling like 'crap' to
a fact of life that the more we give thanks is thefeeling fabulous and fantastic.
more we have to be thankful for (that Law ofI hope this has been of some help.
Attraction again). Our gratitude energy goes out